Wondering how long and how much youth i need to waste in order to complete this course sia? (FOREVER? i guess:( so sad but tat's the true) This course seems so long and challenging. Well, honestly, (to my hubby, cousins and friends) like i told u i really dun like my job. I even have plans to leave this Benoi Sector office (fyi.. it's between boon lay and tuas--- I know super far far rite?) after CNY 2009, but haiz.. why why? why global recession has to come now and thwart my "job hoppping" plan? Look like I have to wait till things get better and clearer den "SIAM"?
Well... some ppl might think it's good to have such a job. cos most of the times, i'm surfing net or chit chatting with collegues. but i find my time is wasted. Make me now so lazy and no mood to chiong. Then when the HODs of different depts (when i said different dept, i really mean it.. it can be the HR, Energy, Service, Finance and simply the admin auntie come and order me (WTF rite?) and the regional biz leader (the one tat pays me salary to send an sms from his mobile on behalf for him) need my "help", i'll be so busy until no time to slp and eat, burn my Public Holidays and weekends cos need to OT for them for FREE. so sad... it's not even marketing stuffs. Everytime I OT for other depts, it's always finance stuffs, IT stuffs, Technical stuffs. WEIRD jobscope rite? lol.. so for ppl who like such jobscope, kindly come to this company sia. LOL.. o ya.. i'm in the business development div. k? only me and my boss. LOL.. though my official title is "marketing exec"; the underlying title is "bao gao liao".
Ironic rite? so sad, but life is always like this. It's doesn;t live on to your expectations and i guess that's why i got my depression? lol.. cos i find life is meaningless and everything just can't lived on to my expectations? that's y i understand my cousin's feelings when she said tis statement:" i know i eventually can get a job and get the "si fang mao", but eventually, the salary, jobscope and tat grade is not what i want to achieve in the end" (To Ah HUa) I totally agree ur theory, totally Thumbs up. that's wat i'm experiencing now and that's y i can relate to ur feelings and situation now. I know i will get a job, but this is not what i want - salary, jobscope, lifestyle. but what jj said to us, also not wrong. life has so many turning points, it's just that we are experiencing it now (early phase of our career life now) not later part of our life. And she reali dun want tat turning point to happen to her in the later phase of her career. But it's so saddening la. i just want a job that i've passion for and has big salary which is able to fulfil all my luxurious dreams and desires. Lastly pamper my whole family.
But this current situation is not doing any good for me. it's wasting my youth and i'm not learning anything relating to marketing or sales. u know tat "chio chio" energy i had when i first stepped into the society has all disappeared into thin air as times goes by in ENART. LOL..now i'm a lazy OL.. no ambition, no life.
okok.. enough abt the whining. the more i write and complain, i think my bad mood worsen (period + depression is not good)
can;t wait to knock off now. still got 2 hrs and 41 min to go
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